I'm currently very very disappointed at a friend of mine. She changed alot. I'm not sure whether it's good or bad yet, since we don't even talk much anymore to each other, but... one thing is sure, she practically dumped me for her new friends. I mean, I'm not mad at her, I'm more upset. I guess I have to face it. If she don't need me in her life anymore, then I don't need her in mine(:

I'm not naming who is it. She knows it herself.

I'm just, really disappointed.

Hhmmm.

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Tuesday was really awesome, except for the hp thinggy.
Now I'm not in the mood to talk about it though.
Anyway, I got my new SIM card tonight! :D
Same number peeps. Just sms me though, so I can add you back to my contacts(:

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I dont know what's wrong with me these days. I feel empty. I feel...alone. Not sure why. Like something's missing. I can't figure out what. Sigh.

And and and, I realised I've been super sensitive over everything.
I know I know, I have always been like that.
But I dont show it!
But these few days, I showed it to people whom I cared alot about and sorta gave em a hard time. ;\
Sorry, really I am.
I'll try to change to what I was before. Promise.
I'm just... I dont know.

And to someone, or should I say, some people
My tolerance is running low due to my weird mood swings these days.
I'm warning you, stop your bullshit before I blog everything out.
Me? A hypocrite?
LOL, whose the one, I wonder(:
At least I have no fake friends around me, I'm thankful for that, really.
And to the rest who wanna butt in, GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE YOU DO.

You bitched about me, well sorta.
And I'm guessing you added lots of bullshit to make it more exciting huh? :D
I have not said a word about our talk to anyone else.
I have not said a word about your secrets.
You started this shit.
Dont worry though, I'm not gonna tell her your secrets.
You know why? (:
Coz I dont wanna stoop down to your level.
Hahahah :D
I dont betray someone's trust on me.
You betrayed my trust on you though((:
Good job, pal, good job.
Shall stop here about this, unless you force me to post more.
I'll be glad to. I know I'm innocent, that's all that matters.
Besides, someone else was there in our whole conversation, and he's a neutral guy.
He can be our witness, sweetie(:

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I changed my blog song.
I'm currently learning how to play this piano piece by Chopin((:
Beautiful song, just sooo perfect.
Love Chopin! Tsk.
Still learning though.
Only have the score sheet in the computer. Haven't printed it out.
So I have to like take a glance at the score in my computer, then go back to the piano to play it.
-.-
Yes I know, IRRITATING.
But nevermind, Luke's helping me print it out soon(:
Thanks!
Blah. That's the only thing I'm looking forward to right now.

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Ello, the name’s Sherena.
I’m Nineteen this year & am lovin’ it.
I’m a Cancerian.
Imma bookworm.
I close ranks in suspicion & coldness toward outsiders.
That doesn’t mean I’m unsociable, just that for me, there is a time to socialize and a time to be solitary.
I’m appreciative of art and literature, and especially of drama, where the spectacle and ebb and flow of action and feeling particularly excite me.
I have a retentive memory, particularly for emotionally laden events which I can still recall in detail for years afterwards.
I’m too easily influenced by those I love and admire, & can be swayed by the emotion of the moment.

I am never one to patiently pick up
already broken fragments & glue em back together again
& tell myself that everything would be as good as new.
What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it
as it was at it's very best than try to mend it
& see the broken pieces as long as I lived.

Love is what all of us are born with.
Fear is what we learn throughout the years.
I believe that the spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear & prejudices
& the acceptance of pure love back in our hearts.
Love is truly the essential reality and our purpose in life.

And to be consciously aware of it,
to really take the risk,
give our all and experience love in ourselves & others,
is the real meaning of life.

Meaning does not lie in things.
Meaning lies in us.