Today's plans were pretty much different from what I expected.
And I had less fun than I expected too lol.
I thought I would be elated today since I'll be meeting all my close friends.
But I was wrong.


Supposed to go movies with Amanda and Weeleng.
But Weeleng woke up late and she couldn't make it in time for the movie.
Couldn't drag the time any later cos I had to go back to the agency later on.
Sorry Weeleng.
So yeah, I didn't get to meet her.
And my mood was kinda ruined already.
But it was still okay.
The movie sorta cheered me up a little and Amanda cheered me up alot.
:)
Thankyou, dear.
Meeting her tomorrow again yay!
GONNA PULL HER TO A NEOPRINT MACHINE!
:D

Went on to meet Dina.
Huiyun can't go in the end, which upsetted me even more.
But Luke went instead, and I was still happy.
Met my dearest Dina.
I missed her, so badly.
:D
Went to meet Luke.
Both are going to Phantom to have their photoshoot interview thingy for the Coka Cola advertisement.

Walked around Chinatown for AGES.
Thanks to my blurness.
;x
SORRY LA.
D:

Photoshoots done.
Walked to station.
Slacked for practically 15minutes.
And we went our seperate ways cos he's meeting his other friend.

Went Vivo with dearest Dina.
TOOK PICS DUH.
LOL.
And we ate fries, and made ice lemon tea.
DAMN FUNNY.
We pour here pour there, add lemons here and there.
Squeeze squeeze lemons.
LOL.


Dina: *Points at packets of sugar and without hesitation, opened a packet and poured all the sugar in*
Me: *Just stares, trusting her that she's doing the right thing since she looks so sure of what she's doing.*
Dina: *Stirs confidently and suddenly pauses*
Me: What?
Dina: LOOOK! *Points at bottle of sugar syrup* HAHAHAHAHHA.
Me: OMFG LOL.


:X


But it was damn funny.
Took all the different kinds of salsa there and tried em.
I LOVE PICKLES! XD


So yeah, finished eating.
Went rooftop there to slack and camwhore in the restroom.
LOL.
THE LIGHTING THERE IS NICE OKAY.



All the pics were awesome.
Just have one thing to say,
It's all about the lenses, babeh.
TSK.
AHAHAHHA lame.



Hhhmm.
I had fun with Dina and Amanda today!
Thank youuuuu darlings.
BFF(:


Now, for the more troubling news.
I dont get it.
I have bestfriends and close friends telling me they're afraid of losing touch with me,
afraid of drifting apart from me since O's are already over.
I know I know, that's why I'm planning outings and stuff for my buddies, especially those of you who are afraid of drifting apart.
But the thing that confuses me the most is,
you guys don't really give a damn about it after all.
Why must I plan everything?
Why must I arrange outings for us when we don't even talk much anymore?
Why must I put in so much effort to keep our friendship as close as before?
Cos I care and cherish this friendship.
But do you?
I'm not saying you don't care about this friendship.
I'm not saying you're ignorant about this.
But hey, some of you guys say you don't wanna drift apart.
And trust me, I don't want to either.
But why must I put effort in saving this close friendship when the other party probably doesn't even care to talk to me or ask me out?
Its saddening, really.
I could already feel the distance, the tension, the difference between me and two of my closest friends, those whom I thought who knew me best.
But I guess I was wrong.


It takes two hands to clap.
And it takes two of us to secure this friendship and keep it the same.
I feel awful whenever I think about how close we once were, and how distant we have been.
I thought after O's, we would remain close, or even closer, since we have so much time to spare.
I was wrong.
Cos you rather spend it with someone else.
It's no point for me putting in effort to maintain the friendship when you don't bother to do a thing.
It's not gonna work out.


One of you especially;
You said things would be the same again after O's.
You said pangseh-ing your friends in the afternoon to rush to meet us for the photoshoot is very rude and mean.
What did you do to us, or rather me, today?
Right after the photoshoot, you called your friend and left in like twenty minutes.
Thats not rude and mean?
I covered my feelings and mood well.
And yes, sadly, I felt the distance, and the difference today.
I don't wanna think about it, or talk about it for now.
It's depressing, really.
I don't want this to happen to us.
I don't wanna lose you.


To the other,
although it isn't that obvious,
you probably know who you are.



"There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will."
-Unknown



That's it for now.
Troubles and happiness.
:)


Hhmm bye.

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Ello, the name’s Sherena.
I’m Nineteen this year & am lovin’ it.
I’m a Cancerian.
Imma bookworm.
I close ranks in suspicion & coldness toward outsiders.
That doesn’t mean I’m unsociable, just that for me, there is a time to socialize and a time to be solitary.
I’m appreciative of art and literature, and especially of drama, where the spectacle and ebb and flow of action and feeling particularly excite me.
I have a retentive memory, particularly for emotionally laden events which I can still recall in detail for years afterwards.
I’m too easily influenced by those I love and admire, & can be swayed by the emotion of the moment.

I am never one to patiently pick up
already broken fragments & glue em back together again
& tell myself that everything would be as good as new.
What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it
as it was at it's very best than try to mend it
& see the broken pieces as long as I lived.

Love is what all of us are born with.
Fear is what we learn throughout the years.
I believe that the spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear & prejudices
& the acceptance of pure love back in our hearts.
Love is truly the essential reality and our purpose in life.

And to be consciously aware of it,
to really take the risk,
give our all and experience love in ourselves & others,
is the real meaning of life.

Meaning does not lie in things.
Meaning lies in us.