What the fuck.
Seriously.
What the FUCK?

Yes,
I'm pissed, I'm disappointed, I'm hurt.
But the thought of ending our friendship has NEVER crossed my mind!
HELLOOOOO??
My mouth was hanging open when you asked that.

And to your other best friend, who is also my old friend.
Hey,
Don't end the friendship..
C'mon.
So not worth it lah.

And to YOU,
Whom is my bestbestbestbestbestest friend in the world,
We were reasonable, we were trying our best to understand,
but last night...
we really couldn't sense any importance in our presence at all.
You can't expect us to behave and react the same way as your other friends.
You mean the world to both of us, well at least, to me.
How would you feel if I did the same to you when my friends came?

Being a host of a HUGE party requires HUGE responsibility.
Just because it's your birthday,
It doesn't mean we turn into robots with no feelings.
We need your company too.


What did you expect me to do when your friends insult me?
Suck it up and keep mum about it?
Sorry, I can't do that cos I see no reason why I must put up with strangers insults.
Will YOU do that if my friends insulted you?
Oh WAIT.
None of my friends insulted you before.
Cos they know how much you mean to me and how I will explode if they ever say a single bad word about you.


Despite this,
I still love you, just the same.
But I can't deny, there's this tinge of disappointment in me that I bet will never fade away.

And once again,
Before I stop talking about this issue,
NO. I DONT WANT TO BLOODY END EIGHT YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP COS OF THIS.
It's fucking ridiculous.

And to ONE of her friends,
Understanding?
Put yourself in our shoes for once.
Oh wait.
You can't comprehend.
You know why?
Cos you will never know how much SHE meant to us and how disappointed we were when she neglected us for three bloody online friends.
Done.
I said it.
And LESS REASONABLE?
LOL WTF.
Okay I'm guessing there was a typo error there.
And by the way,
We will gladly appreciate it if you don't get into this.
It's between us, and it's complicated enough.
I understand you care for her.
But please, seriously, it's enough.
You may just be adding fuel to the fire without knowing it.
But thanks, for caring for her.

AND TO HER FRIENDS, including that star, (No I'm not being sarcastic)
I'm NOT finding trouble with any of you.
But it's my blog, and all I want is to let HER know how I felt last night cos it has been bothering me a whole lot.
And to that star,
I'm NOT angry with you.
I don't hate you.
And I understand that you're just kidding.
But hey,
my patience has limits too.
I'm sorry if I was too harsh in my previous post.


Blah.
Don't wanna talk about this.

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Stil had prom fever, and I wore a plain black dress that I bought some time ago.
:DDD
YES I KNOW, IM IN LOVE WITH DRESSES NOWADAYS.
PROM FEVER MAN. XD

Went out to meet Bingxin to have some interview thingy for his project lol.
Chit chatted, blah.
:D
Had fun lol.
Thanks for the weird drink.
LOL.

Went to meet my dearest Dina!!
YESSSS.
IT HAS BEEN AGES SINCE WE WENT OUT.
And today was the right time to go out, to forget about things for the time being.
Had loadsssssssss of fun.
I screwed up her birthday present.
Too ugly.
Decided to buy something else for her.
Dina accompanied meeee(:
Bought her present!
I hope she likes it.
I'll give it to her when things between us calm down, if they ever will.
I hope they do though.
I really hope.

So yeah.
Tooook pics(:
As usual.
Has been ages since I camwhored with her kay!

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Ello, the name’s Sherena.
I’m Nineteen this year & am lovin’ it.
I’m a Cancerian.
Imma bookworm.
I close ranks in suspicion & coldness toward outsiders.
That doesn’t mean I’m unsociable, just that for me, there is a time to socialize and a time to be solitary.
I’m appreciative of art and literature, and especially of drama, where the spectacle and ebb and flow of action and feeling particularly excite me.
I have a retentive memory, particularly for emotionally laden events which I can still recall in detail for years afterwards.
I’m too easily influenced by those I love and admire, & can be swayed by the emotion of the moment.

I am never one to patiently pick up
already broken fragments & glue em back together again
& tell myself that everything would be as good as new.
What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it
as it was at it's very best than try to mend it
& see the broken pieces as long as I lived.

Love is what all of us are born with.
Fear is what we learn throughout the years.
I believe that the spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear & prejudices
& the acceptance of pure love back in our hearts.
Love is truly the essential reality and our purpose in life.

And to be consciously aware of it,
to really take the risk,
give our all and experience love in ourselves & others,
is the real meaning of life.

Meaning does not lie in things.
Meaning lies in us.