Dont think I will do a Vlog anytime now.
Feel super nervous infront of the cam.
Shall jus write instead HAAHHA.


Blah.
Yeah I've been updating pretty regularly these days.
Mainly for ONE reason;
I have TONS of pictures.
Most of em mainly camwhore pics.
LOLLLLLL.
What?
I'm a typical teenage girl :P


So yeah.
Today is pretty....sad.
Had quite a long day.
Morning went to modeling agency for my first lesson.
It went pretty well.

Went to Causeway Point after that to help out and sell some stuff to raise funds for the needy students in RP.
Omfg I CANNOT stand some Singaporeans man!
Super stingy!
Stingy nevermind, at least have some courtesy to STOP WALKING and at least LISTEN to what I have to say what!
Damn.
Some of them even glower at me in disapprovingly whenever I attempted to ask them.
They have a bad day then vent on me!
Got one time, I ask this old lady to help out, and she said okay!
And I was so happy, and when she approached her daughter (Adult), her daughter said
"Ahya dont want lah so heavy then must carry it around!"
Wtf.
I was like giving her the -.- face.
And the old lady, NOT THE DAUGHTER YOU KNOW, THE DAUGHTER'S MOM actually took out the 5 bucks to help me out.
I was like smiling gratefully at her mother, and glared at the daughter.
Wahliaoeh.
Sold quite a bit of stuff for them before I had to go.


Met up with boyfriendd for awhile.
He just finished his Tchoukball competition at WestCoast!
3rd(:
Not bad, hun! Love you!
But soon, he had to go to meet his friends.
Dang, only spent like less than 2 hours with him.
When he left, I felt so alone.
:(
I dont know why, when he insisted to stay with me till my dad come,
I insisted that he leave too cos I don't want him to be late.
I wanted him to stay.
Yeah I'm selfish, yadayada.
But I really missed him. I crave alone time with him so so much.
Ah baby, I miss you. :(
Terribly.
When he left, I went outside, and sat by myself for quite a while.
About an hour.
I felt so alone, so cold. I hate that feeling.
:(
I thought a LOT about everything.
My life, my relationship, my friends, my family, and myself.
Sigh, I realised that lurking behind our every move is the knowledge of our own mortality.
It gives life its edgy disquiet, its tenebrous underside.
Was smsing with Dina (thanks hun) alot and smsing a little with Malcolm as well cos his hp no batt soon.
Teared quite a bit, and hugged my legs to keep myself warm from the cold.
& I watched the sun set right infront of me.

Sunsets are the most beautiful when you watch them with someone you love, and yet they are the saddest sceneries created by God when you watch it alone.


Dad came after almost 2 hours. Went home.

FINALLY received Dina's specially customized handmade birthday gift.
A very very pretty bracelet.
Met her up for awhile and gave it to her.
:)
Hope she posts pics of it soon!
And most of all, hope she likes it(:



Kla bye.

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Ello, the name’s Sherena.
I’m Nineteen this year & am lovin’ it.
I’m a Cancerian.
Imma bookworm.
I close ranks in suspicion & coldness toward outsiders.
That doesn’t mean I’m unsociable, just that for me, there is a time to socialize and a time to be solitary.
I’m appreciative of art and literature, and especially of drama, where the spectacle and ebb and flow of action and feeling particularly excite me.
I have a retentive memory, particularly for emotionally laden events which I can still recall in detail for years afterwards.
I’m too easily influenced by those I love and admire, & can be swayed by the emotion of the moment.

I am never one to patiently pick up
already broken fragments & glue em back together again
& tell myself that everything would be as good as new.
What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it
as it was at it's very best than try to mend it
& see the broken pieces as long as I lived.

Love is what all of us are born with.
Fear is what we learn throughout the years.
I believe that the spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear & prejudices
& the acceptance of pure love back in our hearts.
Love is truly the essential reality and our purpose in life.

And to be consciously aware of it,
to really take the risk,
give our all and experience love in ourselves & others,
is the real meaning of life.

Meaning does not lie in things.
Meaning lies in us.